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A few thoughts...

Sep 24, 2007
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I just want to let you all know that this is going to be an extremely long post. If you can manage to get to the end I'll give you cookies. XD You've been warned.

I know I may seem like a totally crazy fangirl with the way that I talk about these guys, Sho in particular. But there are reasons as to why I love Arashi so much, and Sho is a different story altogether. You know, a lot of people know think I'm out of my mind because a Japanese group is my favourite artist. As soon as they hear that they're Japanese I get comments such as 'they suck', 'they have no talent,' 'they're not even hot,' etc. And the best line that I continue to hear on a regular basis: you don't even understand them. There are things called translations, and with Arashi sometimes you don't even need translations to know what the song is about. You can just tell by the melody and the tone of their voices. Plus, I'm studying Japanese on my own, as in not taking classes. I just can't afford it. But I'm setting reasonble goals for myself. I don't expect to read or speak it fluently, but at least manage to communicate and get the basic message across. I won't give up no matter how long it takes.

I've only been an Arashi fan for about 6 months now, but it only took about 5 minutes for me to realize that they weren't like any other group I've come across. How I found out about them was a complete accident. I was on the internet one day looking for something and up popped a picture of the boys drawn by another fan. Me being the curious person that I am just had to find out who they were. So I clicked on the link underneath the picture and there was their We Can Make It! PV. And boom. I was hooked. I thought they were really cute. At first I only kept my eyes on Aiba-chan, but when I saw Sho and heard his voice...that pretty much did it for me. At the time that I found out about them I was going through a really hard time. You can say that I had hit rock bottom. I had problems with a certain relationship, friendships were falling apart, and I just wasn't happy about my life in general. Arashi turned everything around for me. If it weren't for them I honestly don't know where I'd be today. When I listen to their music I feel happy and full of energy. On those days that I'm feeling sad and that everything is against me I'll listen to them and I'll know that there's hope. The smallest things make me happy. Even if it's a new photoshoot or an episode of Shukudai Kun. They always manage to put a smile on my face no matter what. And by listening to their music I know that it's ok to cry sometimes and let it all out. They've taught me to live my life to the fullest and be happy. They've taught me how to be a better person and smile more. I owe these five so much.

But sometimes I really wonder if it's worth it, being a fan when others constantly look down on me. I try to brush it off, but it really does hurt, especially when it's people close to me that have something bad to say. The teasing sometimes gets to the point where I just can't take it. But then I think of why I've come to love them so much in the first place. There's Aiba's baka smile that never ceases to make me laugh on a bad day. There's Sho's silliness and the way he raps in a song. There's Ohmiya SK who always make me smile by showing off their *affection* for one another. There's MatsuJun who always looks gorgeous and so full of energy in the group's live performances. They've eased my pain through all the hard times and make life so much more bearable. Not only that but never have I seen a group so close. You can really see how much they love each other and how strong their friendship is. They also do so much for their fans and you can tell how much they love them.

Getting the boys' stuff isn't cheap though. When I told my friend how much I paid for Time she practically fell off her chair. I'm not one of those fans that can order their stuff as soon as it comes out. The fact is, I just can't afford it like most fans can. I can't buy every single and DVD out there. I'll admit that when everyone got their AAA DVD I was a bit upset. I really wanted that DVD but just couldn't afford it and I don't think I'll be able to anytime soon. If I really like the songs and cover art of a single I'll buy it, but that's pretty much it. The albums are, of course, a must-buy for me. I wish I could do more to support our boys but I try my best. Although, I'm really thankful to all the fans out there that take the time to upload scans, music, and videos. If it weren't for them I doubt we'd even know who these wonderful guys are. And as for concerts, I already know that that's completely out of the question for me. But I'm already super happy watching fancams and just owning one of their albums. ^^

Now as for Sho-kun...I really do admire him, and not just because of his looks. I fell for his smile at first, then it was that amazingly sexy voice of his, and the belly piercing + the arms pretty much did it for me. But then I found out that he graduated from Keio while still performing and working with Arashi. I was really impressed! Not only that, but he graduated while other people, including some fans, told him he couldn't do it. And he did. He proved them all wrong. Really, I have so much respect for him. Even though Oh-chan is the Riida, Sho-kun is a leader in my eyes. It's just the way that he carries himself. He's so ambitious, really loves his group members, loves his fans to death, loves children (like me XD), and he's so fully of energy during concerts. The list goes on and on...I look up to him so much. There are times when I feel like giving up on everything, but I look to him and I just feel so much better. He gives me confidence and incredible inner strength. Look at him. He kept pushing himself and look at where it got him. He makes me want to work harder to achieve my goals. He makes me want to be kinder to those that show kindess to me. And you know what? His raps aren't the usual s*** that rappers today come up with. You know what I'm talking about. His lyrics are real. Not only that but Arashi's music as a group isn't just the usual 'i love you.' No. It's more than that. They give me courage when I can't seem to find it in myself. Like I said, I owe them so much. And Sho Sakurai...he's done so much for me, and I can only hope that one day I'll be just like him. Kind, compassionate, ambitious, successful...

Gomen ne for making this post so long. But I just felt that I had to post this. Hopefully it shows a bit more about myself too. ^^ If you managed to get to the end of this without getting bored, congratulations! *gives cookies* Good night minna-san!

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